Doubts

The decision was 20 years ago, she wouldn't talk about what really prompted the decision, there WAS a reason, a story that goes with it, but one knows the story told many times was prob. not enough a reason. It's not an easy lifestyle, alot of restrictions on too many things, most of all, to express emotions in the physical sense, sure, there's compassion but what else can be visibly expressed? Whie she was awya, there was certain freedom but now that she has returned to the original site, there is less freedom. wonder, how does she feel now? does she ever regret the decision? surely, many have tried asking her that, but none got the answer.